Trust in God and hang tight!

So as a child it was hard, my childhood was not all that amazing we had our ups and downs that made me feel like I was not doing enough to help my family. I had to grow up at a young age and that was hard very hard, but I learned something that was imperative to my life now, I learned how to be patient. Boy, let me tell you that was hard; those who know me, know that is hard for me. But now, as I have grown and matured far beyond my normal years. I was not the type of young man who was easily "settled." I was the boy who never settled for less, until well; I went through some literal hell. I learned through the drug addiction, the porn addiction, and the addiction to alcohol that if there was not a substantial change in my life I was going to die. I was going to indeed fall off the deep end as many call it. As a young man, well no as a man I learned a lot watching my parents and now as I watch my adopted parents so in this post I am going to tell you how I learned to be patient and trust God, and also how I learned to watch for red flags in relationships, and in friendships, and with people that I come in contact with on a daily basis. My life was rather crazy to be honest. I like I mentioned in my book, actually both books, I was a drug addict but that doesn't define Aiden, it will never define me at all. During that time in my life, I had to learn to be patient and trust in God and let him do what he does best and well, that is be God! The alcohol, that was the worst that made me feel worse than drugs ever did, I begged myself to just stop I was literally on my knees puking one night and all I could do was just cry and beg God to stop making me kill myself. And truth be told y'all I was killing myself I was. But I kept on because I did not know how or where to stop, I was so influenced by the world and indoctrinated by those I was hanging out with that I did not know what to do with me anymore. I was hanging on tight for dear life actually, I was hanging on so tight that I did not know what to do anymore, I was asking God "when can I let go now?" And God always said the same thing, "Did I ever let go when it got hard?" I knew right there it was like a slap in the back of the head. I had some sense knocked into me that day. Addiction is hard, and it kills a person from the inside out and will continue if you do not trust in God and just hang on a little while longer! I had to learn to trust in the person who I thought took everything and everyone away from me! I had to trust in God. I had to learn to not lean on my own understanding but in all my ways acknowledge him. I had to acknowledge God and lean on his understanding. because y'all, let me tell you something; when you try to do it yourself, and you try to "play" God nothing ever will work out in your favor. Take it from someone who tried to overthrow God out of his life, yeah... That backfired and that bullet hurt lol! I was not the best person at all, but God saw something in me that no one else saw, he saw love; and a heart that wanted to get clean and wanted to stay vigilant a track for him but did not know how too. he saw past all that and made me clean and washed me as white a sheep wool. I feel me, I am preaching, I am singing, I wrote two books, working on my third, I am a radio show host, I have 4 podcasts'! Y'all, God has truly blessed me and now look, I am in medical school to become a surgeon! I hung in there and I hung on tight for dear life! And what did I do? I had trust and put my faith in the Lord! The author of my steps and the finisher of tomorrows story! I did it and I had the faith to move a million mountains,

but God never failed me not one bit; this is my story; and if God can do it for me then baby, he can do it for you too!