Mercy brought back what was lost!

You know this blog is such an emotional post because I am going to write to y'all about how Jesus has brought back a man who thought that he was destined for hell. I was on the streets and I was lost in so much rebellion and deception not just within the world but within myself. What I thought was going to be my fate turned out to be a lie. But I can sit here and tell you that the mercy of God brought back a man who was heading down the path to prison and a lifetime of being on the streets. I was heading down a self destructive path and it took me being shook to my core to wake up and realize that the streets and drugs and alcohol and lying and cheating had nothing to offer me! God, oh but GOD!! I was a dead man walking in the streets of South Waco, and in the streets of Downtown Tulsa Oklahoma. I was truly left for dead and I did it to myself, but the day I tried to end it all, and my family who read my blog this will be the first time they read about this or heard of it. When I tried to hang myself I knew that this surly couldn't be the end of my story. I had a story to tell. I was done with the streets and I was done with lying, cheating, stealing and self sabotaging my own future. I was always fascinated with the story of Judus how he betrayed Jesus for silver, and when he felt as if there was nothing left for him he hung himself, I was walking in the shoes of Judus, I felt like I betrayed Jesus by walking in the world and not in him. And, I shortly then tried to hang myself and just end it because the pain was just to much to handle. Yes, I have a family and people who care about me but I did not care I was hurting and no amount of "love" they could show me could help erase the years of pain and abuse and outcasting. I had to make a change and the night I tried to kill myself was it for me, mercy, oh that tangable love and kindness shown by God; it was always there I never had the courage to reach out and take it and touch it! And, many will ask "What made you finally reach out and take it?" The demonic laugh I heard behind me the night I tried to hang myself. And the things they would say "We have another one!" oh other things I refuse to write because it is not the appropriate language. But I have this to say, "Look at me NOW SATAN!!!!" I am not dead, the devil thought he had me, oh but baby I am alive I am walking and I am shaking Hell to its core, saving souls left and right! Baby, MERCY BROUGHT BACK A MAN THAT WAS LOST!!! All I have to say now, is this " HELL, GET READY IT IS TIME TO GO TO WAR AND YOU ARE GOING TO LOSE!!"